Me, Myself & Bullying.

Hi guys,

Now this post is just to give you all a taste of what it was like growing up as myself, Aoife Finan. I would never usually talk openly about my own experiences of bullying as I felt highly uncomfortable, but I now feel that I can open up on here because I know that there are people who are going through the same as me.

As a young girl I was bullied in school. I was called numerous names, for example, ugly, fat and weirdo. At night I would have cried myself to sleep, hoping and praying that I wouldn’t have to go into school the next day. The bullying got so bad then that I couldn’t cope with school anymore. I gave my mother excuse after excuse so that I wouldn’t have to face going into school. My mother finally realised that there was something more to the sicknesses that I had been playing off and she sat me down to try to solve the problem. I told her that I was indeed being bullied and I cried for hours after thinking about the hassle that was going to be brought to the school.

The school took the bullying quite serious and actually suspended the bullies after they had admitted that they wer indeed bullying me.

After a few months my mother and father got a divorce and I had to move county. It was really hard to start in a new school, trying to make friends and what not. The rest of my time in primary school was bully free. I truly believed it was over, Until secondary school.

Secondary school was hard for me. There was a certain group of people who thought that it would be funny for them to start calling me names that were not nice at all. They were constantly calling me fat which is hard for me to cope with. I have struggled with my weight all of my life and they ridiculed me for the size that I am. The word ‘fat’ became so commonly used between them, that they decidedĀ  a new name for me would me better and funnier. They started to call me ‘burger’. I said to myself, ‘okay, they are getting bored with the original ‘fat’ jokes that they are moving on to call me something that aids weight gain.’ I was crushed, and have been for many years over it.

To this day I have the same group of people calling me those awful names, and it does hurt. But at the end of the day I have the best friends anyone could ask for. They are there for me day or night, whenever I need them. I tell them when I am feeling down and they do the best that they can to help me through the rough times.

I hope that you all read this and stop to think about the things bullying can do to a person. I hope that you all don’t think that this me looking for sympathy, because it’s not. It’s just me showing you that I have been there and I know what it feels like to be let down. So when you read this, know that you can always talk to someone about your problems, family, friends you name it, there will be someone there waiting with an empty shoulder for you to cry on.

Thanks for reading this..

Yours,

Aoife.

 

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December 7, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.